where have I been? :)

So, several reasons of procrastination: first, I haven't been great about my diet and haven't wanted to go public with my failure. Second, husband has been gone for six days so I've been BUSY. But, progress has gone on anyway. I am now 176 so that's good. I credit the progress to my consistency with my 20 minute workouts; increasing intensity, not time as I get in better shape. My diet needs some overhaul still. I think I need to "detox" my carbs especially sugar. So when hubby gets back I will go two weeks with no sugar or simple carbs at all! It will be so hard, but needs to be done to stop my cravings (it really does work too). Also, when I started this journey again I forgot to allocate a "cheat day". If I know that if I really want something I only have to wait a few days I can skip it. This is somewhat contrary to what I said before about eating something if I really wanted it and not feeling guilty but it's currently not working because I don't seem to have much guilt :) So if it's not working....change it! I have a tendency to be all or nothing. If I'm gonna work out, I'm going to do it everyday. If I'm going to eat good, I'm going to eat perfect. At least until I get to my goal (not including the cheat day :)).
Now, I have a problem. I am currently nursing my baby and it kinda acts like a built in excuse for me much like pregnancy. So really being "perfect" on my diet doesn't seem realistic. My plan is to set deadlines (a major part of goal setting but I'm not naturally a goal setter so I have to force myself into the process). So next goal is below 170 by Nov. 8th. Totally doable but not with doughnuts from Lattin's Cider Mill (Luke had his first field trip to the pumpkin patch today and I downed a big ole donut on the way :))
I found my tape measure and will have my husband take pics when he gets home then post them, it will be good for me to have added motivation of publicly humiliating myself and so I can make sure that the next time anyone sees me I will not look anything like my pic :) (a little dramatic but you get the point)